Why are white women so hard to date?

Because a lot of them, they are boyfriend stealers! Unless the guy is already in a relationship such as a marriage, they won't go for you. Because White women, they in particular like guys that are either really popular or have a lot of money or have a lot of status or have a woman already or have the looks. And let's say you have the looks but you don't have a girlfriend, did you know a lot of white girls will still not pursue you unless you have the looks plus a girlfriend. Especially if you are a white man with the looks and you are dating an Asian woman. That's when they will turn on their acting job which is the let's be charming and let's be cute and let's be sexy acting job so that they can steal that white man away from the Asian woman. Because also about white women is that a lot of them are very still racist. They are very much very racist nowadays as they ever were. So especially when they see gorgeous white guy dating an Asian woman for example, their blood boils and they can't deal with that. They want to somehow get close to that white guy in order to make a connection with him so that they can still him away. They know that they have to make some kind of connection with him in order for any chance of the white guy leaving the Asian girl to be with the white girl so they'll sometimes they'll come in like snakes? They're like snakes pretty much essentially they're like snakes. They move real smooth and very subtly and you won't know that your boyfriend is actually cheating on you until it's probably too late. My mom's best best friend in the world, her husband which is a white guy, he got taken by a white girl. he called to end the marriage from the hotel room with the white girl with him in the room. And it was a white girl that was working with him and they were like pretty much essentially coworkers. And they had two kids the Asian woman and the white guy had two kids and they were married for a really long time. Until this white woman started to seduce her husband away and then eventually they ended up in a hotel room together with him calling her to break up the marriage and you can only imagine that that is one of the most hurtful things that can probably happen especially after you've been together for a really long time like that. The hotel thing and the white girl thing is nothing new because that's also happened to me. My ex-boyfriend's in particular that were white, some of them were found with a lot of pornography or videos or photographs of women that they were talking to that sent them nude pictures and they were all white women. And a lot of my ex's, after we broke up, ironically they got together with white women. As if maybe they were already seeing them or talking or made some kind of connection before the actual breakup of me and him. So these white girls are really troubled some for me. Causing a lot of trouble in my relationships and I feel like some of it is not actually because they are attracted to my boyfriend. I feel like part of it is due to the fact that they cannot stand to see an Asian woman with a white guy in particular specifically a better looking white guy. Now take these same women, and if that Asian woman gets together with an ugly white guy, then that white woman is suddenly approving and happy for them. But if that Asian woman gets together with a really gorgeous White guy, suddenly that white woman is not happy for them. It's because deep inside, a lot of white women are very racist and they do not and cannot stand the fact that an Asian woman is dating a super gorgeous like i. It has to be that the Asian woman dates some white guy that's rejected or some white guy that's really ugly maybe really short in high, or super fat or really really old? Then the white woman does not throw a fit. But they kind of think very shallow I think. They think shallow but they hide it. They don't want the world to know that they are shallow people but when they eyeballs people or when they eyeball men or when they eyeball situations or when they eyeball whatever it is or close or whatever, they are thinking shallow ways. They are thinking very shallow and even though we think that they're not thinking that way? They are actually processing their information as shallow as possible. They think in terms of material girl type of thing. And the material girl mentality is, how can we make this world a better looking place but only to the advantage of me who is the white girl for example. They seem very shallow and even though it seems like they are the typical dumb American who likes to eat popcorn and hamburgers? Inside of a lot of white girls is a very shallow person that's thinking along the lines of looks and money and status and popularity. Why do you think Facebook is so popular? Why do you think Instagram is so popular? It's because these white women, they put so much emphasis on looks money status and popularity. Because that is how they look at the world because they are shallow. Why do you think that most white women only chase after good looking guys? They don't have you ever actually seen a more attractive white girl, chase after or date a really ugly white guy? You don't see it because they're thinking shallow. And when they see an Asian woman dating a gorgeous white guy, they can't stand it because they are thinking that it should be them that needs to be dating the gorgeous white guy not the Asian girl. So not only do they probably think that an Asian person is completely different from white people but they also think that Asians are undeserving especially Asian women are undeserving to go out with the privileged white person so they begin to chase the white guy even though they didn't do that before the Asian girl started dating him. For example, a lot of my exes that are white guys, they didn't get a lot of attention or sudden attraction at all until after they got into a relationship with me. It was like as if, these white b****** they targeted me and my boyfriend to try and break us apart because they're racist it's like basically has to do with racism. I know it doesn't seem that way because white girls don't want to look racist because they would definitely get attacked by a lot of people even other white people. There are a lot of white girls who pretend like they are anti-racist and they will attack other white girls for being racist just to put on a show. But it's only a show because a lot of white girls are very much still racist and that anti-racist thing is such a show that is not even funny it's not funny at all! So they'll pretend like they're not racist and they'll pretend like they're all for interracial relationships and they're all for other races and they're all Asian lives matter and they're all about eating Chinese food because they like Asian people. They think that being anti-racist means eating Chinese food. They think that because they might drive like a Toyota camry? That they're not racist. That's how stupid a lot of white girls are. And that's how shallow a lot of white girls are too. But I've had a lot of problems with white girls with my boyfriends and the first person that the white guy chose to be attracted to was me not them. but apparently they didn't like that and tried to steal my boyfriend away and some of them even successfully did so but that's not to say that nowadays I'm going online and making sure that everyone knows my story and that everyone knows what happened to me and how my relationships were brutally attacked and victimized by these s***** White girls! So I'm letting a lot of people know anyway I can that a lot of white girls are in fact very bad very very bad and they steal boyfriends and they do a lot of wicked things! They're not as innocent as they seem. They act like they're innocent because they are using the white act to make it seem like they are innocent when in fact they're not. I know for a fact because first of all those photos and those videos that I found in my ex's phones, they also help to prove that white girls are not as innocent as they make themselves out to be. They're not as innocent and I'm sure a lot of white guys would definitely agree with me. And there's even some black guys that say that white girls are the easiest girls to sleep with in the world. And white girls just in general they are so disrespectful as long as you don't know that they're being disrespectful to you. They will stab you in the back and they will steal from you they'll blame you for something they'll steal your boyfriend they'll steal your money and do all kinds of really f***** up s*** to you! And then act like oh it's no big deal because they're white so they get away with it. They really have this like nonchalant thing going on within their little white girl community? It's like the nonchalant whiteness I guess I would call it. My first best friend ever in my life was white and we grew apart later later on but in the earlier days, I did have a really good best friend that was white. So she knew what the Asians did and then I also found out that a lot of why people what they do. And I would call this the nonchalant White passion of dumbness. It's like this indifferent attitude that a lot of white girls have? And they stay calm sometimes to make it seem like they're innocent? But then right when they have the chance, they start to do really f***** up s***. My best friend and I ended up splitting apart because I had to move and she had to move and we ended up both going to different schools but we still hung out sometimes. And I found out you know a lot of white girls and some white families, they're really weird like that. And they have a lot of bad things going on like their daughters? Or even their sons? They engage in a lot of f***** up s***. And they start to overcome the f***** up s*** and then they grow up more and more and they become sort of normalized after they make their mistakes. They seem to kind of level out you know later on down the line in their lives but they still have that thing hanging above them or behind them that says that they were really f***** up in the past. Like they stabbed a lot of people in the back even their best friends? There's a lot of white kids especially white girls in general that stabbed their best friends in their backs. They'll sleep with their friend's boyfriends or they'll gossip about them or they'll bully them or something like that. There's a lot of f***** up s*** going on with white kids and their drama. And sometimes it's hard to understand unless you see it firsthand and you feel it firsthand but you know they got this like little racquetball thing going on. Especially in like the upper level or upper class whites community. They like their little tennis. They like their little gym memberships. They like their soap operas. They like their Sun tanning or they like their cheese? Some of them really like to go outside and have their little tease? Some white people and white girls they like their what's that one city in California you know what I mean where all the white people go? It's not seal Beach but it's like Palm Beach or something? A lot of white people like to take vacation to Arizona and then go back to california? You're starting to get the idea of the type of person that a white person can be? They really like their daytime soap operas sometimes. They really like putting stuff in their living room sometimes and not touching it. They always got to have this like little area of their house that nobody is allowed to go in. It's really weird like sometimes these upper class whites? They always have this little space that is supposed to be a living room but it's not a living room. It's where they place all their little trinkets and all of their antiques? Oh and a lot of white people, man they really like their antiques a lot of them. They really like their antiques and they like their little trinkets and their hand-me-downs and they like to go and hunt for these things that they can resell that they can make money on? And they like their little racquetballs and some of them they like their little bmws. Oh man some of the upper class white people want to be? Well not white people want to be but actual White people, they really like their BMWs for example or their Mercedes-Benz is? They are obsessed with the stuff that I just mentioned. And some of them they like to date out of their race after they divorce their white husbands or they break up with their white boyfriends. It's like as if they're trying to rebel or they're trying to say something about white guys or something. But oh man some white guys that are like the ugly white guys that are like upper class? Oh man some of them I heard her so ugly inside and so pompous and so cocky? Man my best friend's real dad? He was such a cocky little son of a b****. But he was the type of white guy that was into expensive cars and he liked tennis? And he liked his gym membership and he even had that one like speaking voice that was like a really stuck up white guy? You know those white guys that I'm talking about? Oh my gosh he was the poster child of stuck up white guys in all of california. And my best friend mom, she was like the typical stuck up blonde white woman of sort of upper class california. She was also like typical white woman sunbathing with her best friend in Arizona and then coming back to california. She likes her little antiques and she did like all kinds of weird s***. Like just like white people s***. But they ended up getting a divorce and the white woman who was my best friend's mom, ended up going out with a Persian guy that was a drug addict and a drug dealer. Really weird. Really really weird what these white women do. Like just so awkward that she would break up with her white guy husband and then go out with some drug dealing drug sniffing Arab guy. It's like so weird but I also heard that Arab guys they really like blonde American women. And this Arab guy ended up marrying my best friend's mom, and oh my gosh he was so gross. Oh my gosh she was so disgusting. He really liked white women in particular blondes! And me and my best friend would be in the car with him when he would be driving us around? And any white girl that was on the street that was like blonde? He would try to honk the horn and he would say something like nice tits and stuff like that to her. And you won't believe it but I found a giant collection of white women pornography in their bedroom because I had to use the bathroom one time. Can you believe that this little son of a b****, this little Persian son of a b****, okay he marries my best friend's mom and then brings his little p*** stash of white women pornography two their own bedroom and whenever he's out, he hollers at any blonde and tells her what nice tits she has. And this guy is so disgusting that he ends up offering me drugs. And my best friend of course she's doing something really weird and crazy going through her little white girl phase of f****** up big time. But later on, I noticed that she kind of leveled out and in a really weird way, like normalized but not normalize. Like after her drug usage as a white girl, she still remains somewhat pretty but she ended up having a child and like everything that was going on was like kept under the covers and everybody was really quiet about everything. And it was just like a really weird awkward Aura and vibe within her house as well as her community. It was like so my best friend ended up moving too another white community that was gated. And like they were weird too! Like you know they do their own little like white person f****** up thing? Like they make their mistakes and sometimes they make really big mistakes. Like really really f***** up and hurtful and not just hurtful but like it's just really bad. Like they do it sometimes as a group too. And it happens in like these cleaner white neighborhoods you know but not all white neighborhoods are like that but sometimes you know you got these white neighborhoods that have stuff going on and people have gotten into doing their own thing etc. I remember going with my best friend to a party which happened to be a white person's party but this happened at a giant mansion. It was one of those rooftop not rooftop but it was in the foothills in a gated community where like apparently the San Francisco 49ers owners lived? It was like one of those like mountain top white person super duper expensive house communities? And so we ended up going to this party, and there was a lot of people there. And everyone was in the backyard well I don't know what you call that but whatever it was it was like in the back. But it was a giant space in the back with a swimming pool and a jacuzzi and a separate house that they had for their dog or something? And the backyard was overlooking the entire city of Los angeles. And you could see from Miles and Miles away the blinking lights of the hor horizon of Los Angeles county and probably Chino hills as well. I mean it was like way up top on a hill and you could just see everything. And there was a bunch of people there and they were all socializing and hanging out and we were doing the same. Just hanging out with the white people. And that's how some of them do is that they throw these parties and sometimes they throw only dinner parties but when they're not throwing dinner parties, and they want to party, they throw these House parties that are like that. And I was invited to another one but I was living in a different state so it's not like I could constantly go to these parties. But these white people would just stand around and talk about something while they're drinking and I don't think it was until then that I actually had alcohol? I think I had alcohol at some point just like a tiny bit but I was so young that I don't even remember if I even had any alcohol before that party. But I know that at that party, I remember someone giving me alcohol and it was not good. Let's just say that after that party, me and my best friend, separated permanently. and I wasn't even living in California at the time but I had come to visit her because and my dad I had also come to visit my real dad but at the same time I wanted to see my best friend because me and her were friends since like preschool or elementary School and this situation I'm talking about was like when I was a teenager. So we were friends for a really long time. And I remember having my first drink at that party and I also remember what it felt like. And it was the first time in my life that I felt the dizziness that accompanies what it feels like for a person to consume all call. And from what I remember, I did not f****** like that feeling at all. I didn't like it because it was really strong. It was like I didn't know what was going on. I didn't know what was happening to my body and I didn't know what alcohol was or what was going on. I didn't know and all of a sudden like gradually I was starting to get really not like dizzy dizzy but I started getting like that little feeling that comes with alcohol. And I remember it distinctly as like my vision sometimes it started to get kind of blurry too? And stuff like that and I can't say too much about that situation but, let's just say after that party, me and my white girl best friend parted ways permanently after I left for the airport. I lost her phone number and she probably lost mine but I probably lost her phone number first. And after that I have never talked to her ever again. So after that I started to have a relationships with white guys. It wasn't until I was 18 that me and my high school white guy crush ended up going to Las Vegas and I seriously did not know that Las Vegas marriages were actually marriages. I didn't know that they were legal so when me and my high school crush were in vegas, we were a little bit tipsy and we didn't know exactly what was going on I mean like specifically so we ended up going to a wedding chapel. And the wedding chapel was really beautiful and you know and I really didn't know what I was getting myself into because I thought that because it was only like $65 that it was fake. Like it was $65 for the service as well as a free limo ride to the courthouse to get some papers. I didn't know that these papers were actually serious but now that I think about it if you're going to a courthouse to retrieve papers then that should have made it obvious that there's something going on. But I I didn't know that it was actually a real thing. So we went through with the thing and we took all kinds of pictures and there was like one rose that was given. And the music that was playing was out of a tape recorder. Because you know $65 you know what I mean? With 65 coming out of a f****** wedding chapel they're not going to have a salsa band playing your music. So we had like a little tape recorder thing and it really was old school tape recorder. It was one of those cassette tape players that you had to like manually press the buttons with. And a few years later me and my mom were visiting and having dinner and I thought that I should probably tell her that I was living and having a relationship with somebody. So I thought that maybe this dinner time would be good. So I decided to bring the little paper that Vegas gave to me and I brought it with me to dinner and I showed her after we ate. And told her that there was a guy that I've been living with and having a relationship with and that we're serious and I don't know if this paper means anything but that's what it is. And as soon as she saw the paper it read you know wedding certificate. The paper red not wedding certificate but marriage certificate. And I mean it was like a little piece of paper how was I supposed to know that it was serious you know what I mean? I mean it's in Las Vegas come on now I mean how serious is getting married in Las Vegas going to be? But as soon as she sees this paper, oh my gosh we ended up getting into a giant fight because she kept asking me do you know what this is? I said yeah it means I'm in a relationship I'm in a relationship! And she says do you realize that you're married to this guy now? And I said yeah but it was in Vegas it's not serious. But I just wanted to tell you that I'm in a relationship and she ended up flipping out. And she also said marriage is like that are supposed to have at least the parents or family or someone else there and she ended up freaking out and accusing me of hating my family. And I said it was just something that we did and we didn't know that it was serious! I was not planning on not having any of my family members there but she apparently was so insulted and said that when you get married you're supposed to have family members or parents or someone else there besides just you and the groom. And I was like you know how was I supposed to know you know what I mean? So I was really just having an upset time cuz I really did not know what was going on at that time. But me and the guy ended up breaking apart because he was not good for me and I was not good for him so we ended up breaking apart. And I really am upset because I wanted my wedding time to be a serious matter with some kind of friend or some kind of family there. Maybe even a pet and none of that was there! So I'm really like kind of upset about that and I didn't really know that it was that serious! So I had relationships after that with these white guys, in my 30s and they ended up getting stolen from me by these f****** white whores! These white whores let me tell you about these white horse that have caused pain and suffering in all of my relationships. Okay I feel like it's probably because they're racist. They do not like the fact that an Asian woman is dating a white guy. But they are okay with a white guy or a white woman dating an Asian guy as long as they are picking and choosing who the Asian guy is. As long as for example the white woman is ugly and the Asian guy is ugly. They for some reason don't like me dating a gorgeous white guy and they end up seducing them away from me or they end up causing the white guy to cheat on me or they end up stealing them away. So I'm really mad at them right now and the lonelier I get, the angrier I am because I start to think about things and I start to think that if they had not stolen my boyfriend's, I would probably either have a child with him or have a serious relationship or already be married and living in a house that we both bought or something like that. Like I start to think of things like that. But because these white whores stole my boyfriend's I'm laying here on my bed lonely as hell and no I don't want to go out with ugly guy! I find that f****** insulting as f*** when especially a white girl tells me to go out with an ugly guy. I find that f****** insulting and I refuse because of that. I refuse to go out with an ugly guy and I did so before in my past but now that these b****** are telling me and trying to get me to go out with an ugly guy, I know their motive and I know that they're trying to insult me which means that no thank you I'm only going to seek out a super duper handsome guy to go out with from now on. I'm not going out with ugly guy so you can just go shove that up your ass. So because someone told me that I'm seriously insulted because that's supposed to be an insult! Think about it for a second if someone told you that you should always be going out with an ugly guy? How would you feel? That is a direct insult. That is not a complicated complement whatsoever. That's not a compliment at all! That is when a b**** is thinking on the inside of her head that she doesn't like you and that you deserve to go out with an unattractive guy. That's what that means. And when some b**** tells me to go out with an ugly guy? I know exactly what's going on inside of her head and I want to tell her no. And she's going to get f****** livid about it and she's going to be upset and probably try to find out who I'm f****** dating so that she can come in between me and my boyfriend. Because she's a b**** like that. so that's why I don't even respond to any messages from anyone online, I won't even look in the direction of an ugly guy at all and if I ever did, that's great but because me and some b****** have this little war going on? They're not going to get what they want out of me. And if they want me to go out with somebody on attractive or they want me to do this and they want me to do that? Because of the little battle that started a long time ago starting with my relationships? I'm not going to do what they want me to do and I'm only going to chase after or date or marry and preferably have children with a super duper gorgeous guy preferably a super duper gorgeous white guy because I know that super duper gorgeous white guys are the ones that are targeted by these boyfriends stealing whores. So that is who I'm going to Target as well. And I know it's going to get on their nerves? But let's just say I have a lot of free time and that's what I feel like I'm going to do because these b****** in the past, they stole my boyfriend's or tempted my boyfriends because they just wanted to. They felt like after waking up one day, I feel like I'm going to call Michelle's boyfriend and I feel like I'm going to try to find out where Michelle's boyfriend is going to work and then tried to go over to her boyfriend's job and start talking to him and seducing him. Which is exactly what this white one white b**** did. And he ended up leaving me for her. So because numerous events like that have happened to me, I no longer talk to any guy that is average looking. And even though I know for a fact that it might get on a b****'s nerves that I am going out with one of the most gorgeous guys in the world, I don't give a f*** what the f*** she is feeling! She can kiss me and my boyfriend's ass and take her f****** dildo and shove it up shove it in her mouth. And go make another p*** video because that's probably what she's going to do! Because that's what a lot of these white boyfriend stealing whores do is when they are not stealing someone's boyfriend, they are making an adult video. That's what they like to do that's their favorite pastime is making adult films or sucking black dick or stealing someone's boyfriend. So I've decided that I'm only going to go out with and if I have to only hook up with super duper gorgeous White guys. And I know that's going to get on a lot of these b****** nerves. And that's going to be really funny. Because that's what I want to see. I want to see that it f****** pisses you off. I want to see how f****** miserable it f****** makes you to know that I am now hooking up and going out with a super f****** gorgeous white guy because I know for a fact that it's going to get on your f****** nerves. But anyway I really just want to try to relax from now on. I really want to wind down my Sunday with a nice shower and prayer and organization and relaxation. Because I know next week is going to be another good week. I'm hoping that this time I will be able to achieve my goal that I've been wanting to achieve for a really long time! Now some of these boyfriends feeling White whores, they might try to find out what my goal is. And because of the fact that I'm Asian and I happen to be in relationships or hooking up with some of these better looking white guys, that are younger than me also. Oh and that's another thing is that they f****** cannot f****** stand the fact that I am speaking to not only a super duper gorgeous white guy but it's super duper younger gorgeous white guy. They can't f****** stand it! They will call me a f****** old lady and they will call me this and that and they'll call me a w**** and they'll call me a s*** and they'll tell me that I need to date an older guy. They'll tell me that I need to date an old Asian man. They'll tell me to date another Asian person. Because it f****** pisses them off! So that's who exactly I'm going to go out with here and if I have to hook up with them that's exactly who I'm going to hook up with! And I'm not sure if I want to get into this stealing a white girl's boyfriend thing because I have other things going on. You know so like I feel like it would take some time and energy to try to steal a white girl's super gorgeous boyfriend. Then I really don't like the fact that you know I have to spend that kind of energy on that kind of b****. Like and really I shouldn't have to really spend that much energy because the white guy should already be leaving her for me. But I would prefer to go out with a gorgeous white guy that's younger than me that is single not that's already in a relationship. I actually do not find guys that are in relationships attractive because that's the way it should be for me! I don't like it for some reason it just like for example if me and a gorgeous guy were to get together, I know eventually we're going to reach a point in our relationship where the both of us are going to not be so good looking anymore. I mean there's going to be a point in our relationship where we might end up gaining a little bit of weight. There might be a time in our relationship where he might end up growing out facial hair and not shaving it for a time? Which might make him look ugly to other people but to me because of the fact that me and him are already in a relationship, I would not find that on attractive. So there would be a time where me and my boyfriend would start to get older together and then you know there might be times where we're not going to be as attractive as we once were when we first met. Because how attractive are you going to be when you first wake up in the morning and your hair is a mess and you haven't showered and you're wearing your really unattractive pajamas. I mean you can't be attractive all the time so I'm okay with me and my boyfriend getting together and then maybe like sometimes letting it go look wise sometimes because that's the way it's got to be! We can't always wake up beautiful. So but what I'm saying is that like I don't find guys in relationships attractive and that's the way it should be. I think that's the way it should be but some girls prefer guys to be in a relationships in order to find them attractive like some of these boyfriends stealing White horse. These boyfriend stealing white horse, they don't find the guy attractive unless the guy has status as well as a wife. Or the guy has money as well as a girlfriend. Or if he's single and he is not chasing after them and is not looking in their direction. Like it's really weird because I know that I had to set up some profiles online for a few white guys that were on the better looking side and these b******, they don't say anything to them. Even when the guy is super gorgeous, they won't message back! But when they find out that they are in a relationship with me or something like that, or when they find out that eventually the guy ended up going out with somebody, that's when these f****** white s**** will message these f****** white guys and say hello. Like how the f*** are you going to f****** do that at all? How the f*** are you going to ignore a f****** guy and then end up saying hello to him as soon as he gets into a relationship? That is the biggest f****** s*** you will ever f****** find in the f****** world and that's what a lot of these f****** white girls will do! They'll find out that they're finally in a relationship and then it's like oh by the way hello. Sorry I didn't message back a long time ago but I thought I might do that right now but I see that you're already in a relationship. That's probably one reply that they will have? They'll probably say something along the lines of: sorry I didn't message you back I was really busy but I'm sorry, are you in a relationship now? oh little old me didn't know that you're in a relationship and I'm sorry I didn't mean to reply to you now. The f****** b**** that I am. You know what I mean you see how some of these f****** b****** are? You see why I'm so f****** mad at them. But man you know what the lonelier I get, I'm really having a lot of patience right now. I'm really the angriest I've been getting lately is literally going online and making these replies. That's the angriest I've been. I'm not going to go out there and Target somebody so I can kill them. I'm not going to go out there and steal somebody some white girls car. I'm not going to go out there and steal some white girls boyfriend. The angriest I've been literally is going online on these sites and telling people what my opinion or my experience or my story is. And that's the most I can do because I feel like I have to get it out somehow. But you know it's really f***** up is that like we were in a relationship. Me and the white guy were in a f****** relationship. No matter how you f****** see it? We were in a relationship. You know what I mean? that means that we were calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend and that we were probably also saying I love you and I miss you and stuff like that. And we were getting each other gifts and we were hanging out with each other's friends or families or whatever the f***. And we were supposed to be exclusive like going out in a monogamous relationship. I don't care how you f****** see that but that's basically how I saw that and that's also how my boyfriend saw that too. So I don't understand why, that is so difficult for a lot of these girls to back away from. I don't understand why they can't do that? I'm backing away when they're in a relationship. I don't even find their boyfriends attractive when they're in a relationship. I don't understand why they can't do the same thing to me. But it's either because they're racist or because they don't like me and they're trying to hurt me and directly or because they're just f****** whores like that. So I really just I'm really upset because me and these exes were in fact an actual relationships! And instead of wishing my relationships well and hoping that my relationships and helping us to make that relationship work and succeed, these b****** are coming in and trying to find a way to ruin it for me and my boyfriend. And instead of like saying you know even like something nice. You know you can say something nice like I see that you're in a relationship now, and I really hope that it works out and I hope the two of you are really happy. I'll be praying for you or I'll be looking out for you or if there's anything that you need or any advice that you need? You can come to me type of thing? You can't even be a b**** like that? Why can't you be a f****** girl like that? Why do you have to be the girl that tries to ruin s*** for me? So that means that I'm going to have to take measures to also do the same thing because apparently it's a dog eat dog world. It's every b**** for herself type of thing it's every man for himself type of thing and nobody gives a f*** about if anybody's in a damn relationship or a marriage anymore. Because of that, do you know what believe is behind that? The belief that all is fair in love and war. That is the universal belief that is going on inside of a lot of these people's heads is that anything goes and what that could also mean for me is that anything goes for me as well. So if anything goes for these b******, that also should apply to me. Which means that for me as well All is fair in Love and war which means that now sets a completely different situation. For me as well as anyone else in front of me or around me or that knows me or whatever. I really didn't actually truly believe what it meant to understand All is fair and love and war. I really want to give it some thought. Which is exactly what I'm going to do. And since some people are using that against me, I feel like I should give it some thought and use the same way with them as well. Because you know why should I be the b**** of the group? Why should I be the b**** of the community? I'm not going to be the b**** of the group! And I really didn't want to have to like resort to this low level scumbag type of way which I'm not going to. I'm not going to resort to a scumbag way. I'm not going to resort to you know stealing people's husbands and stealing people's boyfriends and stuff like that but I mean I'm going to give it some thought. I really want to give it some thought because more than likely, these girls that seduce my boyfriend away, they live their lives according to that belief that all is fair in love and war. So I'm really going to have to think about that. You know what I mean? I really want to think about that and then I'll come to a conclusion regarding that situation probably soon more than likely my mind will start to make its mind up and start to think about what it wants to do and whether I consciously make those kinds of decisions or not, that's not going to be completely up to me but rather my maker. You know God above you know because got above will know that people are essentially thinking All is fair and love and war. God is going to know that that is why, I'm having so many problems is that a lot of people believe that all is fair in love and war. So knowing that I'm going to let him decide, how I should approach my life differently if I were to use the same tactic as these people. So I mean if I were to decide right now, I would start to learn what it means to live life according to what it means that all is fair in love and war. so I would start to ponder and I would start to wonder how and what I would need to do differently in order to live that way. Because I wouldn't know exactly how to go about living life in a way where it aligns with the belief that all is fair in love and war. Because I've never been that way! So I don't even know the first thing if I were suddenly living life as if All is fair in Love and war. So I would need to think about like the different strategies and the different ways and different things and stuff like that and then understand that there's a lot of people that believe that. So because I wouldn't know exactly what to do, I would have to ask help from my higher power. I would have to ask my maker how to approach living life as if All is fair in love and war. So like I will let my maker decide how I'm going to do this. Because I feel like more than likely I would have no choice except to live life as if I believe in the saying All is fair and love and war. So I will really have to think about it. You know and I don't know if like it would change me in an aggressive way. I mean I know that I'm not going to like all the sudden be like okay I see that that white girl has a boyfriend and I'm going to go and take her boyfriend away. I don't think that I'm going to be like aggressive crazy like that but definitely when I go around and live life from then on, the situations will definitely look changed. It they will be changed because if I'm living life thinking that all is fair and love and war, situations will become different for me and when they become different, I will do things different and so you know it's just the way it is! I mean that's what they told me also is that it's the way it is! So I'm also saying the same thing it's the way it is! You know what I mean what causes and comes and then what goes it goes. So other than that, I mean I'm not going to like have that thing you know change me entirely, but I mean they're just going to be some changes going on and you know but as far as like everything else goes, you know I'm still going to be happy and I'm still going to be accepting and grateful for a lot of things that I have. And happy and grateful that I still you know safe here and happy and have some things that still are happy to have. Even though I wish I could have a little more but a little more as in like you know a relationship that's like caring and loving. As well as you know maybe a different place to live too. I want to move to like a different like a newer place maybe even a newer apartment or newer townhome but I can't do so until I get the money because I'm not going to use my reserves to get a new place so I have to stay here until then. I would rather my boyfriend come and move in with me and just write then and there we saw a relationship rather than this you live here and I live there and we see each other sometimes and stuff like that blah blah. And I had the opportunity but I ended up not liking the guy because of some things that he said and I just didn't like that. But I'm hoping that I was able to give somebody some kind of you know thing to read as far as this goes.